Every single time that I look at your pictures you know what I feel? I feel guilty & bad for not being able to help you anymore. I just feel sad. You know I really loved you I did my best to take care of you. You decided to leave I can't force you to stay. You can't accept my honesty. It's not that I cheat on you but you know I've been so obsessed to you. I want to always keep you doing good. It did hurt me. I'm not mad at you or hate you. Until this moment I still feel that I should be responsible for you. 
Afiq, I sayang you sangat2. Dah 2 tahun I jaga you, I tolong you. Berat hati I nak biarkan you pergi tapi you dah buat keputusan you. I maafkan semua salah you. Buruk mana pun you I tetap akan ingat you pernah bahagiakan I. Buat I rasa special. You bagi perhatian dekat I. Memang tak dapat dinafikan pun lately ni I banyak fikir pasal you. Keadaan you tgh susah sekarang. I tak boleh terima kenapa jadi mcm ni dekat you. Kenapa family you tak tolong you. You tahu kan I tak sanggup tengok hidup you susah? Remuk hati I bila tengok gambar you, susah senang kita bersama. Memang I selalu rasa tak adil bila apa yg I buat dekat you mcm terlampau melebih & you pulak tak buat benda sama dekat I. Bila you dah buat keputusan mcm ni, I taktahu siapa lagi nak jaga makan minum you. Siapa yg nak make sure you study. I pun taktahu apa takdir kita berdua. Tapi mmg lembut hati I. Baru tengok gambar you pun I dah rasa sedih & tak sampai hati. Seorang laki yg I selalu manjakan & memang manja dengan I tapi sekarang dah takde. Dulu merajuk I pujuk you. Benda nampak kecik tapi besar makna bagi I. I harap you pandai jaga diri & sentiasa buat apa yg I selalu pesan dekat you. Generally me, org layan I mcm mana pun tapi kalau I pernah sayang org tu memang susah I nak lupakan dia. I mmg betul2 harap you tolong jaga diri sebab I dah takde nak jaga you. I mintak maaf sebab dah tak dapat nak jaga you lagi. 

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