Personal Diary 101

Maybe it’s already meant for me to always be ignored. Did nothing but I am ignored for no reason. I’m not gonna care too much about others anymore. I’m not gonna force anyone to always be there for me too. I’ve done so much of being kind to people. Just a small thing that made me being ignored? Guess what, I’m tired being the only one trying so hard to keep the conversation going. If it’s meant to be it will be, if it’s not I shall accept everything that is meant for me. Not being a priority anymore. Well it might be a sign. I’m just not a helpful person as what you expected.

I know that I should never compare my life with anyone else but now I’ve started to feel how dull is my uni life. Seeing my friends are all having a good bond between their coursemates & friends. Used to be in the same class with my boyfriend & yes they even treat me so good. It’s different with what I’m having now. No bonds & always excluded. I wish I’ll quit this place real quick. I just wanna go to other better place that I can make friends & have that normal uni life. Now my life is only about me being hectic with my task & study but I don’t have that time or space for a leisure time of me enjoying the student life. Kinda upset but maybe this was meant for me. Maybe next time I’ll have a better life.

It has not been so great or not so bad neither. I just had my early morning thoughts of I forgot how it feels of having a bestfriend and a good roommate. It has been 2-3 years ago since I last had both of them. Maybe I've gone to the wrong place where I can't seem to have much friends that I can hang out with. I don't expect people to pay attention on me but I do have my instinct of wanting to live normally like how other people do. Maybe there are people like me but they do have many virtual friends. I'm not really sure if I have a lot because most of the time I'm not even texting to anyone other than my boyfriend. I think I'm not gonna bother to make friends at my current place right now because non of them can suit me. Maybe a few might work but I just wanna have a break from taking care of someone's feeling. Somehow I only have another 2 semesters left which equals to 8 months. I wanna do something that I love & I just have to start making my own inc...

I miss a long journey drive with him. Last year we went to Pesta Penang on December but it was not properly planned I guess. I think 2 days 1 night trip to Penang wasn't enough for me. This year I really wish to have a longer trip with him because we did not manage to food hunt that much because we were rushing to go back because of certain things. So we've planned a couple of trips for this year such as going to Krabi in August and Johor in December. I hope we won't have much things to do at that moment because all I need is a vacation with him and enjoy our leisure time together. Looking forward to more adventure with you this year ! <3

I just found out a new song which is so addicting and relatable with me. I can listen to it for so many times per day even though it is an old song. But that's what my soul need and it's a vibe for me ! Mind Mischief

Since i got home, i never tell my mum why did i move out from that house. So i just simply gave excuse that i don't wanna clean up the mess in that house anymore. But that's kinda make sense too because i'm quite tired taking care of that house. I'm really looking forward to have a look at my new room. I plan to decorate it a lil bit but i'm not sure yet. If i feel a bit extra maybe i'll do something with my room because i need to stay there for another 8 months.

Finally i've done taking my stuff out of this room and i only have a few things left to take out tomorrow. And yes finally i'm gonna leave this stupid house surrounded by stupid people. I should've left last semester but it was a mistake that i be too kind with this girl. After knowing that somebody actually became the third person to make things worst, now i no longer have my kindness towards anyone. Everyone here is so busybody about my life. Yes it's also a huge mistake to stay in the same house with your course mate because they talk a lot about you when you're not around. Last night was the most bullshit night ever and i didn't expect my roommate is going to be extremely stupid. I think tonight she'll be sleeping at the front room well that's good because i 've had enough with her shitty attitude towards me. I'm gonna be staying alone after this until i graduate and i'm hoping a better life and just focus on my study & assignment. I ...