My last night in Taman Bahtera,

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Finally i've done taking my stuff out of this room and i only have a few things left to take out tomorrow. And yes finally i'm gonna leave this stupid house surrounded by stupid people. I should've left last semester but it was a mistake that i be too kind with this girl. After knowing that somebody actually became the third person to make things worst, now i no longer have my kindness towards anyone. Everyone here is so busybody about my life. Yes it's also a huge mistake to stay in the same house with your course mate because they talk a lot about you when you're not around. Last night was the most bullshit night ever and i didn't expect my roommate is going to be extremely stupid. I think tonight she'll be sleeping at the front room well that's good because i 've had enough with her shitty attitude towards me. I'm gonna be staying alone after this until i graduate and i'm hoping a better life and just focus on my study & assignment. I just hate to deal with people anymore. I don't know it's just weird that almost 80% people that i met here are proven to be stupid and they have no courtesy at all. I don't expect them to respect me in terms of age but at least respect me for what i do. If i don't disturb you then you don't fucking disturb me. I feel like this is the worst experience i've ever had since i became a student. This is not my first time staying with someone but i never expect to face shits like this.
I think it's not me who don't deserve kindness but it's actually people around here who don't deserve my kindness.
My last night in this stupid room, I can't wait to leave this room & house tomorrow and good luck to them for no longer having a maid anymore. 

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